names and name-calling

Filled out forms. Waiting for card. Soon I will be SAG, the same Screen Actors Guild that others endlessly babble about on sets. I will be able to call others "ass-kissers" and say "I want my god damn craft services." "Suck up!" I'll shout to anyone who crosses my path.

I had to pick three names for SAG, in case I didn't get Josh Ramsey. As it turns out, I did NOT get Josh Ramsey. I got "Josh Rubrick Ramsey," as there was already a Josh Ramsey. This was fine with me, my dad's name first name is Rubrick, so this is a paen to him. My gay lover rolled his eyes when he saw my third entry: Joshella Hyperbole Ramsey. That might have been a funny joke turned nightmare reality.

Today I worked a Gecko commercial. Heaps of humanity, shitty box lunch, shitty treatment, etc. But, it was a commercial, paid better, and went faster. People smoked dope on breaks. We were in a cavernous old auditorium. We were wrestling fans. I got in the aisles and silent-shouted racial epitaphs. They had a white vs. a black wrestler, and felt wrestling would be the perfect place to trot out the racist character I have been working on. It was a great success, as there were a great many black folks on the commercial, and if I was really speaking (we had to be stone silent, yet appear like we were cheering), I would get a well-deserved ass whupping. Plus, I don't want to hurt peeps with that word, I just find it intoxicating to say, cuz you're not supposed to say it. In fact, a buddy of mine was telling me that his pal was in Prague, and when he realized he hadn't seen black people in 12 daze, he started yelling the "N" word as he went down the street. Fortunately, nobody in Prague reads Nabokov. Are you bad if you run up and down the streets of Prague using the "N" word. If the "N" word falls in the forrest and nobody hears it ... ???